Graduate lo!

Sadly.. I'm switching to dayre. HAHAHAH. Blogger. You have served me well. But I'm moving on :) because the stickers are so cute there!!!!!

https://dayre.me/yanhuan 

Public Holiday ;)

HAHAHA. Being exceptionally happy n looking forward because this wonderful Friday is the first Labour day that I have looked forward to so much after so many years :)

Also, gonna start my induction programme next week which means I'll be away from the kids. Really looking forward to starting the course so that I can learn more about the kids. HAHA.

Graduation ceremony is on the following Friday :) which means a day less of induction but I hope I won't miss a lot of impt things....... HAHA.

Probably the reason why I love God so much because He knows exactly how much I want and need everything.

Had fever on last Friday night, hope I'll recover from this sore throat asap!!!!

Down

The weather is being extreme.. Hot in the morning n cold in the late afternoon.. And the usual weak Huan fell sick.. I've been missing Jason so much ever since I started work.. I enjoy my time in childcare.. But everyday I dread at the thought of not being able to see him as and when I want.. Or even knowing that both of us are worn out but still wanting to meet.. I miss you..

TT D4

4th day of work and this is surely a job filled with high n low. HAHAHA. The emotions you portray to the kids can be as quick as... Speed of light?!! HAHAH. Surely I realised I can be patient. HAHAHA. The cuteness n innocence of the kids melt your heart instantly.. HAHAH.

Alrightttt. Back to the reason why I'm here........... Many ppl always have that God doesn't speak to me experience.. No dreams, no sound, no bright light or smth. But let's think about it, if the rs with God distant, who would be the one who wavered? Definitely not God.

Okay next. Beside the rs with God........ What would be the ways that He would speak to you? Other than having dreams, vision and hearing God.. These two are the most impt n yet always neglected..

- People, any human being!!
- Nature, cmon, that's His creation.
- Everything, books, sermons, words.

God yearns for everyone.. And He is speaking to each n everyone.. Imagine how disappointed you would be when u keep communicating and yet they couldn't even see you or understand you..

Time of the month

Probably it seemed like many bad things are happening to me cuz I'm having the damn stomach cramps again. But I felt much relived and happy for the wisdom tooth surgery.. It doesn't hurt as much anymore, I just have to be careful when brushing teeth.

Anddddd. I'm having the usual stomach cramps :( It isn't as pain as the past two months but the pain is there and is enough to make me feel extremely frustrated when mum walked up and down the shopping twice just to get something that is worth $20 and ended the cashier missed out one towel n we gotta pay for some amount. Everything was annoying. No matter how gentle or fierce or whatever u did to me. I can't help being sarcastic n the tone of voice was really annoying. And sometimes I get annoyed at myself for being annoying. HAHAHA. But tell me how to smile at u when I'm feeling all weak n pain and you want me to walk everywhere aimlessly?

HAHAHA. Ohwell. Looked back at my photos on the day when I had my menses for first day. I looked like I was dying. HAHAHA. Like pale n weak. Well I felt like dying too. I rmbed I was on the verge of fainting when we walked under the bright hot sun.

Probably I shld just hide myself in mountain n ignore what everyone says when I'm in pain.. I say nothing healthy..

Wisdom tooth extraction SURGERY O_O

LADIES GENTLEMAN XIAO JIE XIAO DI EVERYBODY.

I had the first experience of knife on me today!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Okay it's just what the title says, wisdom tooth extraction surgery. 

It wasn't a very good experience for me.. someone who has zero tolerance for pain probably due to the millions sensitive receptors for pain in me…….. I was brave enough to tolerate the pain for so long because the thought of having needle in my gum was.. unbearable. HAHA. It was until Thurs? Or Fri? when the pain got so bad and I could see my cheeks swell on the right. HAHA. Chubby huan looks cuter! On the right only though.. HAHAH. I was on the verge of crying because of the pain.. okay maybe I cried a lil. 

So……. dearest Jason asked me to just remove the source of pain.. and I braced myself for the extraction.. but I didn't braced myself for the expenses. HAHAHAH. It was a damn 1.2k SGD for this tooth removal. I guess I didn't felt any pain the moment I heard the price.. HAHAHAH. SO…. mum brought me back to JB for the extraction.. and it costed 800ringgit for everything! :) You get to divide by 2.6times if you wanna calculate in SGD ya. HAHAH. Alright so it's 307.692308 SGD incase you're trying to calculate. Woah. HAHAHAH. Well, you had other things to do with this price too….. like… traveling thru the custom, traveling to the dental clinic, traveling back to custom and back home.. 

The thing that strikes me most was.. not the money.. it was the pain.. the amount of pain from that surgery…… They gave me anesthetic.. the whole process of waiting to feel numb was some tinkling sensation in the mouth.. then it was kinda weird sensation touching my lips and chin through my fingers only.. and half of my mouth and tongue was numbed. HAHAHA. I could only feel on my left tongue. HAHAHA. Okay that's not the point. Was called in after 40mins because that's the time taken for numbing.. waited quite a while and hey. I spoke malay to the aunty. HAHAHA. Then she spoke a whole sentence of malay leaving me smiling at there politely because I understood nothing. HAHAHA.

Then the time came… the dentist came and started doing all sorts of things to my tooth.. There was a point of time where I was literally shaking and told myself everything would be fine and I'll get over it but the tears can't seem to contain themselves.. I wonder how do ppl resist their tears when in pain.. I felt like I was in hell or I wouldn't even survive.. I could feel my lips shivering and tears flowing down when they stopped to prepare for the removal of the other tooth. HAHAH. Damnnn. The dentist was nice because I guess she tried to calm me down by humming some soothing tune.. HAHAHHA. I tried but I can'tttttt. HAHAHA. Cried when I left the room because the pain was just too much to handle.. My whole mind was telling me not to give birth anymore because I'll be crying and not be able to handle the pain of childbirth..

I was being whiney and frustrated because of the pain on the way back home.. Had a nap when I reached home and slowly the pain subsided.. Now the pain is gone and just some swelling.. Everyone thought I have cotton in my mouth.. HAHAHA. Ohwell.. Thinking back right now.. There's nothing much about the pain.. but when you were experiencing it.. OHMYGOSH I CANT HANDLE IT. HAHAHA.



Now I just pray that I don't have to visit the dentist any sooner… Why do ppl have to pay for dentist and get tortured by them……… but the pain will haunt you… urghhhh. Can dentist be more gentle? or can there be surgeries without pain? HAHAHAHHA. gosh. I've never been so afraid of dentist my whole life. HAHAHHA. 

Feeling sickish because I've been dehydrated these few days esp today.. Yet I'm unable to sleep at this hour even with this headache n heaty feet.. Those thoughts keep running, no they don't run, they fill my mind. As though it's a bottomless pit. Suddenly it seemed like everything would be alright with all the possible thing happening.. I'm so thankful for the allocation.. It's so near.. And I really wish I could just run away.. Do you understand? Let's pray that I'll be fit for lesson tmr.. This headache n heat inside me is no joke..

Today's outing to gbb was ridiculous. The guys were extremely late and everyone was famished. The last point was the most infuriating because I had to eat smth when we could have eaten smth much more satisfying. I could have viewed this positively because I got to catch up with the girls and I admit had a good time tgt. But. What are words if you never mean them when you say them? One does not simply be late for 2 hours without informing. Do you know that's a very selfish act?